morning thoughts

it's raining, it's pouring, the old man is......
well, i dunno abote the ole' man but THIS OLE WOMAN is feeling mighty blue, blue, blue...

remember the amy grant song, 'raining on the inside?'
...cuz when i'm raining on the inside
then Your arms of love break thru
and i fall in love w/ You once more....

{it really was raining on my morn walk}

He is my Hope & my salvation
whom shall i fear?
WHAT shall i fear?
this pain?
failure?
the mockery of ... who?

Lord, lead me and guide me.

don't get down cuz of me. i am just overcome. i've begun this wonderful new exciting chapter in my life.
i love all the aspects of running.
i love how freeing it is.
i love the wonderful FIT side effects.
i love joining the ranks of other runners.
i don't have to compete w/ anyone but myself and it makes me feel ggggreat!
there are no pills to take, i don' hafta feel guilty.
it doesn't take time away from my family...in FACT, my FAMILY BENEFITS from my running!
i'm a healthier, happier mommy and wife;
i have more patience (thru prayer: i don'believe i could do anything w/o prayer!), more stamina/energy; the list goes on...

& yet i'm plagued w/ this knee pain. from what i can decipher in run.m'zines & online run.sites w/docs writing, it seems 2B 1 of 2 things...either the runner's knee or this other thing where the 3 muscles around the knee come 2gether.

my daily dilemmas are:

• whether or not to go out (run or walk) and
• whether or not to GET ON THE HORN & try to get a doc appt. WHO DO I CALL? i would like 2B living in a bigger city right about now. not only do they have running stores but they prob have more specialists. i'm thinking right now, sports medicine type doc would be good to see.

it is now about 2 hours since i started this post (fights to break up, breakfast to feed, coffee to share w/ hubby) and would you believe it: i am walking around and my knee pain is almost non-existent! what is up? is it just cuz it's the start of the day?

i went on my walk today as promised. only about 35 minutes and a fairly good clip. but not pushing it. even tried to do the butt-squeezing thing but it would twist your knee in stride so i only 1/2 did that! =) and by the time i got home i could barely make it up the steps. (i've found myself avoiding the stairs the last couple of days!)

but now, a few hrs later, i'm feeling little pain! whassup? i do think the restfulness is better. and stretching and icing. so i'll keep ya POSTed! =) any comments or suggestions gratefully accepted!

to God be the Glory! --kt