No Pain No Gain?

remember when your coaches said that? okay, mind you, MY COACHES were saying that in the 80s. yes, i know that dates me. i grad-ee-ated in 86! (NINETEEN 86, thankyouverymuch!) i am pretty sure that doesn't hold true anymore.

talking weight: there will be no gain if you are good-pain-ing-it whilst working out.
talking training: there will be gain in conditioning if you good-pain-it whilst working out.
talking PAIN: there should be no real pain, right? you should, what, ice, pray, take it easy?

well, i must say, the taking it easy part, i have a real problemo w/. i want to move FORWARD. i am so excited that i am moving up in my mileage...i don't WANNA slow down and take it easy. i am a little scared of myself...that i'd blow up like a balloon. but more than that, it has been so fun upping my mileage and recording it....and working TOWARDS something!

then, there's my deadline. i have a 6-7 mile race coming up. i'm fine w/ going slow. i don't really care about that. i just wanna finish! but 20 days later i want to do a 10 mile race! priorities: the 1st race is a relay. i'm part of a team. even if i go as slow as the fabled turtle, i will finish and we will have DONE IT. we will have participated in the welch's marathon!

you know, a couple of months ago i told my marathoner friend, c, that my dream was to run the indian summer 1/2 marathon!!! i've 'dreamed' of that since high school days! when i say dream, i mean in the far-off-in-the-distance type dream. not attainable. not working towards it. like it was so far off i didn't have to worry about it. just one of those things you jokingly say you'd like to do it someday, knowing you're not doing anything about it, so it sounds good, like you have ambition, knowing all the time you don't really. isn't that stupid and sad? that's the story of my life! watching other people attain their goals. never been a goal setter myself! i'm good if i make it thru a day (or less) w/o giving in to some food temptation i've set myself up for!

i'd watch running on t.v. (not often...olympics and some marathons) and just MARVEL. oh, how i wish i could do it. but then i'd keep on slogging away outside never reaching for anything, really. and not keeping my eating under control. letting the food cravings control me! well THINGS ARE DIFFERENT NOW! my WISE friend, C, wrote me this long email (well, long for her, drop in the bucket for me) about goals etc. (i kept it.) it wasn't an enabling note. it was a motivational pep talk w/ "no holds barred"! (?)

here i am, 2 months later, missed the indian summer 1/2 but i'm about to PARTICIPATE IN the welch's MARATHON!!! it's okay that i'm not running the entire thing. i'm IN it...and unless my shin bones actually break in 1/2 while running, i will run MY whole 6mile relay leg of it!!! amazing!

the 2nd race, the columbia river classic is 10 miles. i'd run the whole thing. by that wk, in my training plan, i'm supposed to be up to more than 10...like 11 or 12. but i'm concerned about my legs. i haven't entered that run and i'm sure the deadline is a ways out. i'm not part of a team. just wanted to do it, kinda sorta cuz i missed the 1/2 marathon and just cuz i want to enter as many as possible. it's fun. i want to get over race anxiety by doing all of them!

a funny note: last nite, reading to the kids b4 bed, i was icing my legs w/ a bag of frozen corn. (amber, it's all i have...close to peas but not quite) well, i kept rotating them...they were wrapped in a thin towel. after everyone had dispersed and i was in a semi-conscious state, waiting for b to get home fr work, i noticed the bed under my legs was wet....i think the corn was LEAKING!! gross! so i just re-wrapped them and laid there. didn't wanna get up--too painful and too tired. in the mid of the nite i got up and put 'em back in the freezer. gross, huh?

i'll end. put your eyes outta their misery! truly, i'm not apologizing! this is MY blog, right? like my diary? more later. --kt