HI AGAIN! heel pain

just in case anyone still checks this.....

well, it's been, count 'em, 3 months about, since i last wrote. why? what is the sad news to report? just that i couldn't face writing about how i was a slug, did nothing after p.t. didn't help much....sat around feeling sorry for myself and trying to get the gumption to go to the gym and do non-bone-jarring cardio>....

june came around and i was a tired, sorry bag of blub. by 3 pm i was needing a nap and wishing it was bedtime for my precious kiddos. at the end of my rope i surrendered (first to God...AGAIN) then called my dear friend who sold ADVOCARE. "i give up," i told her. "bring me a spark!" so she did. i started drinking it and went on the 10 day cleanse immediately.

well, a few wks later we were hooked. line...sinker. so, i've been on the mns appetite control ever since. love it all. in 2 months, now, i don't know my inches but i've lost 10 pounds. tho i'd like it to be 30 (and counting) i'm quite excited about 10.

on the down side: something HORRIFYING and excruciatingly painful has been happening to my right heel. nothing sparked this. i'm pretty sure, thru self diagnosis, that this is plantar fasciatis. but we're still paying off p.t. and i just cannot bring myself to run up another bill. i will have to

1. go to the doc -- $15 copay
2. get weighed -- $way too much
3. get a referral
4. go to the podiatrist -- prob $25 copay since specialist
5. get weighed --$$ this won't cost me as much (psychologically) since they have no record of previous wts for me
6. order orthodics?? $$300 at least!!

ugh

again i say it: ugh

but i'm talking: in the morning or after i've sat for any length of time...i can BARELY WALK. i hobble. i've gotten pretty good at walking on the ball of my right foot and wonder at the detriment this may be doing to me. after a while it gets a tad better.

i was relegated to NEVER going shoeless months ago. but it's SUMMER, for crying in a mud puddle! so, eventually, i broke down and went in for birkenstocks. this is a huge step for me. ugh. i have always HATED birkenstocks! well, walked in and they had CUTE summer ones (thonglike) on sale for $65! i was expecting $100 and guess what? all the regular priced birks in the store were $120!!! good grief. i think it's one of only 2 places that sells in tricities.

oh dearie me. i honestly feel so old. so depressed. this pain is atrocious. at times, when i'm just sitting, or standing but not putting any wt on my right heel, there will be BURNING shots of pain coming from there! WHAT IS THIS????? it is awful. i could cry, just writing. i feel hopeless as far as exercise is concerned. my calves are killing me. in the past this has always been from LACK OF exercise. i stretch them a lot now (cuz i know that is good for this problem) so it can't be cuz they need stretched.

i'm really at a low here, folks. I know Jesus is the Healer and I'm praying for that. and guidance on what to do. i'm scared i'll do the whole doc route to NO AVAIL.

again, i know if i lost all the wt i MIGHT not have this problem. but it can't HELP matters. i do know skinny people though who have had this malady.

help me! advise me! pray for me, PLEASE.

i've missed you!

kt

news...Team In Training

hi again! i did join the world's gym a couple of weeks ago! yeahoo! w/ my joining, i got a personal trainer to take me thru some motions and set me up w/ a card of STUFF to do in a circuit type thing. just some time on the treadmill, on the recumbent, and about 5 weights stations. no biggie. kinda fun. not too much time. not too scary.

she only had me walking 10 mins and riding 10 minutes tho. @ the same time saying cardio is the way to burn the fat (duh). so i just walk 20 and ride 20. i'm sure i'll start jogging too.

THEN, the other nite the Leukemia/Lymphoma Team In Training had an info meeting locally. WELL. i just REALLY wanna do this but $2400???? to raise???? that is DAUNTING to say the least. what say you?

i have till may 20th to 'commit' w/ $75 of my own. the marathon (or 1/2...but i'd be GOING FOR the whole 'thon!) is november 20something. this year. yes. that's six months away. but $2400???? i ask you.

let me know thoughts on this. my concerns are: 1) getting injured again and having to cut WAY back again to almost STOPPING altogether (eeeeeeeeeeeeeek! tho my consolation is that, HECK, i could always WALK the darn thing!); 2) a couple of months ago my dear hubby went to new orleans as a volunteer to help w/ katrina aftermath...and we got donations for that....y'think anyone in our SPHERE would also want to support for THIS cause? i mean, we've had our share of close ones die of leukemia or have a scare w/ it.

okay.. comments por favor!

God Bless your day!

ps: for a few days i thought i broke my toe. then it seemed like it was doing too good to have actually been broken. now, i think again, it was, of course, broken...cuz i still have massive pain and it is still swollen...waxy-looking. ick! it's been wks!

pps: i have a puking daughter today...pls pray for little J.

ppps: did i tell y'all that our wonderful dog BIT MY DAUGHTER (K) in the face on Easter? so we don't have that wonderful dog any more. couldn't be trusted. well, my beautiful daughter now has an xtra 'dimple' thing on her face under her eye. treating w/ mederma right now ($17 a tube!).....nice. thankful she HAS her eye!

i think i broke...my TOE

it's blue
and puffed up
and painful

i'll let ya know

over and out!

Gym

i. joined. a. gym.
there are those who will rejoice at this news.
my bro has been trying to get me to do this thing for years.
i went kicking and screaming.
but it is a way-cool one.
so far i've done a SPIN CLASS (ouch...is it over yet?); ran on the treadmill (trying not to fall off...boy, my BALANCE has changed!); faked it on the ELLIPTICAL (ha ha...i'll get 'trained' on that tomorrow); swam in the pool w/ my younguns (w/ my INDIVIDUAL membership i can take my FAMILY each day in the afternoon!!!!! BONUS!); and, yesterday, took a STEP class.

can you say, "IT'S BEEN 9 YEARS SINCE MY LAST STEP CLASS?" oh good grief, gerdie.
there's that BALANCE thing again. i should rephrase...it's not that "i took a step class." it's more like: "i tripped and stumbled thru a step class."

but in the end i was smiling...sweating, but smiling.

so, we're on the road again. and i will try and WORKOUT 4 times a week.
and, greg, the trainer lady that signed me up (and led our RPM class ---aka spin class) is going to give me a free start-up deal about what things to work out on ... on the wt machines.

okay? capiche? whatever. thanks be to God that we could do this right now. i don't know that we really can but my loving hubby wanted me to do this to feel better about all things! yeahoo!

on the homefront, everybody is healthy. too bad we're not wealthy (money's not everything). but we ARE wise. (right?) and i know my kids are growing in wisdom. as are we. (that is from the "healthy, wealthy and wise" saying...sorry...it's a tangent.)

perspective: we are extremely wealthy in the Lord. we have a RISEN SAVIOR! He is the KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS. He is the BEGINNING AND THE END. The Alpha and the Omega. He WINS!

God Bless your day. Seek Him and He will be found! He WANTS YOU! =)

i need to write

well, as i need to write...and i'm not running...but not just eating either...i'll write about the mundane (and not too mundane) happenings of life in the grant household, eh?

no, i am not sitting here at the computer

actually...staying as far away as possible

of late, i try to TURN IT OFF early in the day so i'm not tempted all day long

takes so long to boot up, don'tchyaknow

the day started out a whole lot diff'rently ... i thought i was going to go check out world's gym whilst my family started to slave away at YARD work! (i love yard work...we have too much tho...but i also like to get away. and any time when they are going to ACCOMPLISH something w/o me here....WOW! it's like a dream come true!)

but alas rain

which i love

mixed w/ wind

love it

feels like the ocean

i love to open a few windows and hear it pattering.

sent janie outside to get her piano bag outta the van and she came back in sopping and irritable

i said, just pretend we live at the ocean. (which she likes to pretend) but she was grumpy. so i encouraged her with, if we lived there, we'd buy RAIN GEAR!!!! =)

b and n left to run errands.

so i started cleaning. katelin's room (with katelin).
my room (w/o katelin!=)). dusted.

i've been spray painting. (yesterday) black. did a few frames. have those in my room but not up yet. things i haven't seen in a year! (since moving here. did a wall-hanging magazine rack i found at a garage sale. black. that, i hung! (DRILLED! SCREWED!! wow) in my bathroom. brad says it's crooked. it will drive him crazy as he sits on the pot. woe is him. =)

back to today: i got on tangent #3million (sorry flylady) and started looking for more things to spray paint. (those i sprayed yesterday but today i started looking for more)

so started looking thru pics to put in frames.

now i've emptied a downstairs closet.

oh me

oh my

now i have the schoolroom looking like a tornado hit.

so, i'm off to fix up that mess before dear hubby gets back and thinks i've

BEEN ON THE COMPUTER ALL DAY!!!

(pot calling kettle black)

love and grace and mercy to y'all...in the Name of Jesus! God Bless your beautiful day! ~~kt

ps: yes, i might be joining a gym!

as i slog Sun 3/26/06

as i slog along...nursing injuries and making new ones... my dear friends Christie and Hope are running their last long run today (20 *wow* miles) before the taper begins.

nice.

i'm so excited for them! they are running Boston! I know i've mentioned that sometime in here before but it's worthy of notation once again. Boston is the Sunday after Easter. (He is Risen!)

so, that is so cool. i just can't believe they are running 20 miles today. it's really no biggie for them. they are VERY FAST runners and i can't IMAGINE...in my WILDEST...keeping up w/ them for TWENTY. no worries. won't be called upon to do THAT in MY lifetime! so, it's just a needless foray into an unneeded sentence! =) i'm all about verbosity for the sake of itself.

my ankle feels okay today. i'd like to go out for a 2 miler. perhaps i could meet C&H (pure cane sugar...from Hawaii) in their last 2 miles! HA! now THAT'S a good idea! get 'em while they're good and BUSHED! then i could (maybe) keep up! hmmmmmmm. i'll just have to see about arranging that one!

i'll let you know!

ouch Sat 3/25/06

thought i'd better go ahead and blog...
did i mention my perfectionism?
since i hadn't blogged in so long, i felt i needed to go back and note ALL my little jaunts into the fields in the MONTH (give or take) that i hadn't blogged. and that just kept me from it all the more since WHO HAS THE TIME FOR THAT? so i just kept putting it off. yesterday's blog entry was me, throwing my perfectionism to the wind, and just jumping in where i was! (sound like flylady?)

so, again, today...off to the desert fields behind our neighborhood.

passed paintballing young'uns today. boy they thought i looked weird. just stared!

Blazer ousted 2 jackrabbits and a pair of ducks that just did NOT know where to land after he found them out! They KEPT circling and quacking above us for the longest time. i kept telling them, "you'd better go find somewhere else, cuz he'll just GET YOU AGAIN the minute you land back here!" i fear they left babes behind and that's why hey wouldn't venture further. i got us outta there as soon as i could (in the hard-to-get-traction sand).

man! i can't believe how much land there is out there. you'd never know it. so far, UNDEVELOPED. i wonder how much longer before the subdivisions protrude and push till they cover that area. it's truly like the wild west in there. like the desert old movies you've seen. like Little House on the Prairie. except when you run into someone w/ great traction, trying to 4-wheel themselves up onto a hill. i swear, today i thought i was going to witness a horrific accident. this jeep (not like a cool 4 wheel jeep...like a family, big, long jeep...like didn't chevy chase have a family jeep in one of the national lampoon movies??) was VERTICAL! he went back down and took one last shot. i had my hand on my phone, ready to call 911. i thought for SURE he was going over backwards! but he made it. my 2nd thought was he was gonna high-center himself....would i help???? well, apart from being scared of being out in the DESERT w/ my dog blazer who i THINK would save me, but i haven't had him all that long; what could i do, really? i guess, if that HAD happened, we could have rocked it backwards...but then it would have, FOR SURE, gone over backwards! well! all this worry for nothing. didn't happen.

just noting it.

what else...

OH YEAH. that part where i STEPPED ON A HUGE ROCK (how'd i miss seeing that?) and TURNED MY ANKLE!!!! oh, me oh my. SEARING (sere? sear?) PAIN! I almost went DOWN on this one! but after a moment of no breathing, the pain subsided and i rotated around and around and was able to move on...no problem! it's a little swollen tonite and feels like it needs to pop ( i know: not a good sign ) but relatively okay. i'm gonna ice and go to bed. we'll see tomorrow. but all in all, i've been BLESSED w/ real strong ankles. (*you might remember this same thing happened last month when my bro was here. healed up right away.) pls, God. I need NO MORE INJURIES.

i won't quit going back there, tho. even when i can't run or when i have to take lots of breaks, it's way more fun than beating the norm paths! fun for blazer to run. fun to see nature. fun to be OFF the beaten path. and it's a good hike for when i can't run. harder work ... in the sand. and very hilly.

so, ROCKS begone! you haven't GOTTEN me yet!

so: one hour total. 3 covered. ran probably 30 minutes total.

and brad's still in new orleans. miss him.
God Bless!